Weight Loss Journey - Week #4 (Feb. 15 - 21, 2015)

This week, there is no word for what this week has been. My emotions have been all over the place and for once I don't know what is to blame. I haven't been sick nor has it been anything that can be blamed on being a female (if you catch my meaning). I honestly don't know why but this week I have never felt crappier or more depressed in years. And of course with my luck it affected my eating habits, which have also gone to crap.

Sadly this week is gonna be a bit different as I didn't write down what I ate for about 4 days and I don't want to lie about what I ate because that is hurting myself and I really don't want to lie to my readers either. So in this post, I'm not going to include my food diary for this week because there is simply none. I do admit however that I went overboard with eating sweets and that just makes me feel even more depressed with myself.

For instance, last night was the worst night ever. I sat here in front of my laptop and I ate a whole box of Girl Scout cookies at one time! That's about 20 cookies! That is just too much and I was so disappointed in myself that I just sat here and stuffed my face with those cookies. Now I bought the cookies in order to support one of my friend's little girl and I didn't mind doing that and helping her out at all. I ordered them because I thought I was strong enough to resist temptation an only eat the serving size once a day; but apparently I was wrong.

I didn't really eat anything different from my previous weeks and pretty much stuck to the same thing. What really depressed me was the fact that I snacked all during the night and for the life of me I don't know why. I wasn't hungry at all but the food was there and I wanted it.

Sadly, I didn't exercise any either and this just made me want to cry in frustration that I still don't have the get-up and go that I need to have. I don't know why it is so hard for me to actually get outside and walk around for 20 or 30 minutes everyday. I mean my street that I live on is fairly quiet and I know that I can walk safely on it without having to worry about getting hit or anything. And it hasn't been the weather, cause while it has been cold here it hasn't been nearly as bad as it has been in other parts of the US. I mean it was in the 70s today and we had a nice breeze! But did I get outside and walk around? Nope! I just sat cooped up in my house all day.

Hopefully tomorrow I'll exercise. My mother brought me over a couple of Tae-Bo DVDs that I plan to make use of tomorrow since we're suppose to get rain nearly all day. My plan is to do a DVD in the morning and then go out walking close to the evening or visa-verse.

I have also come up with a sort of reward or incentive if you will that will hopefully make me want to work even harder at getting my goal. I'm not gonna say what the reward/incentive is but if it works this week, I'll be sure to let you guys know in next week's post. :-)

I thank you for reading this blog and apologize for a different style of posting this week but I will be back to posting as I have done in Weeks #1-3 next week. I also maybe doing other posts between this one and next weeks. Let me know what you guys think about that in the comments or you can even tweet me! I'll include my Twitter at the bottom of this post.

Oh also, I'm thinking about posting a before pic on this blog in the next week's post and I'm a bit nervous about doing it because I don't like the way I look at all. Which is mainly why I don't like to post my picture up for anyone to see because I dislike what I see so much but maybe putting my picture up is just what I need to happen and for reality to really smack me full in the face. Again let me know what you guys think and thank you again for reading this blog!

Until Next Time!
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